Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Kawasaki Disease, One Year Ago

While in the middle of a 4 day hospital stay during Will’s case of Kawasaki Disease in Feb '07, I recorded the following thought: “This humble, grateful frame of mind is a good place to be. I’m hoping and praying for it to last in me.” My current gratitude for good health is intensified as I remember times less fortunate…

After 4 days of various symptoms including headaches, lethargy, & neck pain, Will woke up the day after Valentines day with a rash like I'd never EVER seen. I still regret not taking a picture of the geographic, beet colored pattern that covered most of his body. (If I had a pic I'd post it to demonstrate the severity!!) He tested positive for strep and was eventually given a steroid to fight the rash. For the next few days his head/ neck aches persisted as did his lack of energy but he ate and slept fine which caused us to try and wait out whatever was infecting him. On Sunday night (Feb. 18th) I gave him a rice bag and he was ready for bed at 7:00 pm. A few hours later we gave him tylenol and a blessing (his 2nd for this illness).

I now quote from my journal during that time:
"It was in the middle of that night that more alarming things began to occur within his body. Around 1:00 he awoke complaining of neck, elbow, back, ane even hand pain. I applied heat and waited to see if he’d fall back asleep which he did for about an hour. He then began to complain of a stomach ache which made me take him to the bathroom. In there John and I took his pants down and tried to make him sit but he couldn’t- his knees were too stiff and swollen.

This alarmed and confused us and we weren’t sure what to do. He limped to his room but couldn’t climb back up into his bed.

We gave him Tylenol and he fell back asleep until about 8:00 am when I tried to give him breakfast and got him dressed to head straight to Dr. Whiting’s office.
My younger sister Kimi was supposed to have been coming for a visit that day but had decided to catch a midnight ride up north with my brother because my mom told her it is fun to be there when the kids wake up. This is how I feel about her early arrival:

“And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I , the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.” (Mosiah 24:14)

I recorded more about the ensuing events in Wills journal but basically it became a diagnostic challenge. Dr. W. said rheumatic fever. Mom broke down- although I did already have that possibility in my mind due to what I’d read in the middle of the night prior. He said Will would need to go have a heart test at Primary Ch. And possibly stay a few days “with as sick as he’s acting.” …

Earlier that month when the family got sick, I'd had a selfish feeling that I have often before had- I was annoyed at having to “cancel my week.” Again. (Tending, volunteering at school, visits for RS, meetings, mid-morning aerobics, playing with friends etc.) Just making all the necessary calls and feeling like I was dropping the ball again and not reliable was the worst, I thought. I didn’t mind caring for my kids and having uninterrupted time with them and taking it slow with nowhere to go. As long as I got my exercise I was fine. It was just the initial inconvenience that was bothersome. But at that time their conditions were manageable and suppressed with things like Tylenol, cold medicine, chocolate milk, cartoons, naps and hugs.

Now nothing like that puts a dent in Will’s pain, swelling, or discomfort. I am so grateful for those who have chosen to go into the medical profession and learn what it takes to treat so many complicated diseases etc.

Some sad things:
- On Sunday Will said he just hopes he’s better before Saturday so he didn’t have to miss Hayden’s birthday party. He got the invite last Sat. the same day Michael Udink had his party which we had to miss.
- Watching the IV be put in in the ER- He’d say things like “No way. No way. We are NOT doing this. That’s enough!” But he had not even enough strength to pull his arm away- let alone fight to stop it.
- A volunteer came by offering William a Hospital BINGO card. Peggy and I were excited about it but Will, in his low spirits told the lady “I have a bad arm,” meaning he couldn’t function well enough to play. I ended up just marking the card for him.

Truthfully once we found out the illness was probably self-limited (going to end), and that his heart is OK, the emotional burdens began to lift. As hours and days have passed we have seen little bits of progress- today being the most marked day of improvement (mobility in left hand/ arm/ elbow, able to hold and drink from water bottle and push bed moving buttons, played with toys in “Forever Young” playroom)

At the beginning of it all he just wanted to go home but today he commented that he likes it here- MOVIES galore, large food selection, balloons and gifts from loved ones, Mom reading stories to him… I have to admit it has been enjoyable time in the way of bonding with my son.

The words of “Come Come Ye Saints” have found new meaning to me:
“Tis better far for us to strive, Our useless cares from us to drive.”
When you stop occupying yourself with hair styling, aerobics, TV shows, the cars, the yard etc., your mind is freed to think about what you believe in and where your faith lies- how you explain life’s events and take them as learning experiences.
Also the words “And should we die before our journey’s through… we then are free from toil and sorrow too.” The best part about dying – getting RID of the challenges of mortality and waiting for the day when spirit and body re-unite in a perfect form.

I have tried to let William know during this process that Jesus knows how he feels when he is in pain.

There comes a point where the arm of flesh and the finite mind are not enough to rid one of anguish. During times of uncertainty- like when Dr.s weren’t agreeing on the diagnosis and Will was laying here partially paralyzed- the only place to turn was to God. The constant giver of guidance, peace, and reassurance.

I know Heavenly Father’s hand supported us through this trial. First he sent us Kimi to tend Cara and Desi while I took Will to the Dr. and PCMC. God’s love has been manifested to us through the actions of other people. (Balloons, gifts, calls, visits) We exercised our faith by continuously praying that Will would get better and John blessing Him to do so.

The Dr.s were guided. First Dr. Bonsack was “luckily” on-call for President’s Day. Later- he came in just before going home to discover tat the IVIG dosage was 15 TIMES TOO LOW (saved us hours)

When Lindsay and I took Will on his outing we were passing by a mural and had to stop for a longer look. It was a white 3D depiction of Christ ministering to Children from all over the world. I bore my testimony to Will that he can heal you. Even when you think you’re not going to get better he knows how it feels and he can work miracles. He is healing William now.” ( Thurs. Feb.22nd, 2007)

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Thank You Saint Valentine

Valentines Day makes me happy. All of the hearts and treats and love spread around are a fun splash of warmth during the cold month of February. I just can't wait any longer to post my favorite Valentine Poem!! I admire this author, P.K. Hallinan, who generally publishes HIS (sorry P.K.) poetry into Childrens' Books with very cute illustrations. Most of them are about values or family. Worth reading!

By P.K. Hallinan

How many heartprints will you leave today?
Will you share with a friend? Will you give hugs away?
Will you listen with patience to what others say?
How many heartprints will you leave today?
A heartprint is formed when you do something kind.
Your love touches others…Leaving heartprints behind!

You can smile at people you pass on the street.
You can offer a handshake to someone you meet.
You can even pitch in for an hour or two
To help out a friend with too much to do.

Sometimes you’ll reach out to someone in strife
And do something thoughtful that changes a life.
Or sometimes you may say the quietest thing
And never quite know how you made a heart sing.

Yes, each little kindness leaves heartprints that say,
“A very nice person has been here today!”
So…will you cheer up a playmate in need of a smile?
Will you tend to a friend who’s been mending a while?

This much is certain, whatever we do,
The heartprints we give out make us happy too!
So offer your friendship to each girl and boy.
Then join in the music, the singing, the joy!
You can brighten the world as you go on your way…
How many heartprints will you leave today?

Here are the pics that are going on Valentine Cards for Grandparents this year:



Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Tag I'm It

A: The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.B: Each player answers the questions about themselves.C: At the end of the post, the player then tags 3 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

10 years ago:
- I lived for weekend theme dances after CEU basketball games. (80's, 70's, etc.)
- I was not dating John... but I really was writing him every week.
- I spent my Valentines Day making and delivering jumbo sugar cookies with personalized messages as part of a Lambda Delt fund raiser.
- I worked at the S.U.N. center and fully enjoyed everything about it.

5 things on my to-do list today:
- Read scriptures and write in journal (fell asleep with them in my lap last night so had to do them first thing this morning)
- Make bon bons for a friends b-day party tonight.
- Go to 9:30 aerobics, my favorite teacher, Amanda.
- Finish putting away laundry and have kids do the same.
- Parent Teacher Conf. for Will and voting at the school afterwards.

Snacks I enjoy:
-Chips and salsa, especially fresh
- Ice Cream, esp. with brownie chunks in it and maybe some caramel too
- Popcorn, like microwave but usually go economical (and healthier) and pop my own
- Peas from garden
- Sun Chips, and a million other things.

What I would do if I were suddenly made a billionaire:
- Pay tithing first.
- Take my whole family to Florida and John's to Sweden (our Dads' missions)
- Go to Spain with John, and many other places.
- Take the kids to Lego Land
- Go see the Cox fam in Arkansas
- Buy a new Suburban and then a work vehicle for John that weighs more than 100 lbs. and has something more than car tires. Then John would probably want a new boat.
- Set up trust funds for kids
- Somehow share with people in other parts of the world who are without

5 places I have lived:
- Price, Utah
- Monterrey Mexico
- Logan, UT
- Provo, UT
- Lehi UT

5 jobs that I have had:
1. Dishwasher at CEU cafeteria, and server at banquets
2. Scorekeeper for CEU Basketball Camp
3. PAPER GIRL and proud of it
4. Teacher at an alternative high school (truancy school)
5. 1st Grade Teacher at Joaquin Elementary in Provo

1. 5 Things people don't know about me:
If you really want to know more things you can look at one of my first posts which was a whopping list of 100.

I tag Cara, Leah, and Sherstin

Friday, February 1, 2008

Trying to keep exercising

I had a couple videos that I lent out to different people but I can't remember where they may be. Did I lend these to you??
Denise Austin Pregnancy Exercise Video
Richard Simmons, Sweatin' to the Oldies 1 and 3